Tuesday’s episode of MTV’s The Challenge XXX: Dirty 30 ended on an intense note as viewers saw Chris “Ammo” Ammon Hall collapse just moments after being defeated by Jordan Wiseley in the Presidio elimination game. The episode ended with Ammo on the ground and a medic being called.
Ammo opened up about the incident this week, revealing he was raped by a former partner last year and the sand wrestling match in the Presidio had triggered an intense episode of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).
“In November of 2016 I was raped in my own bed by my former partner,” Ammo explained on a YouCaring page he created to raise awareness and funds for his recovery. “I remember saying ‘no’ and ‘I don’t want to’ but my partner insisted that he was going to ‘make me take it’ and teach me ‘how to be a man.’”
Ammo described the incident as “painful, mortifying and non-consensual,” however, he said he did not realize at the time that it was rape. That realization came after speaking with a social worker and asking her if someone could be raped by a person who cares about them.
“She put her hand on my knee and said: ‘Rape can happen to anyone, by anyone. Sometimes it is the people closest to us that hurt us the most,” Ammo wrote.
Ammo said he decided to take part in this season of ‘The Challenge’ to prove to himself that he was strong and that he could do anything.
“I wanted to show myself, my ex partner, and the world that I was the master of my mind and my body and that NO ONE could take my spirit away from me,” he shared. “As many of you saw in the most recent episode, I have a lot of healing still left to do.”
While underneath opponent Jordan during the sand wrestling match, Ammo said his mind triggered memories of his assault and he was left in a state panic that caused him to be “totally paralyzed.”
After leaving the show, Ammo returned to New York and immediately started recovery.
“Since then, I have been focused on taking better care of myself and working hard to get the medical and psychological help I need,” he wrote.
To help in his recovery journey, Ammo is asking for donations to allow him to “continue to make my music and get the continued help and support I need.”
He is also encouraging others to speak up if they or someone they know are being abused by a partner.
“Trust me when I say: RECOVERY IS POSSIBLE,” he shared. “Sometimes all it takes is reaching out and simply saying: ‘I need help.’”
For more information, or to donate to Ammo’s YouCaring page, click here!
(Photo: MTV)
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*eyeroll* i cant stand this guy . attention seeking bully.
thank you! he’s a hoax and should be apologizing for saying stuff like that. All of a sudden he loses and Oh btw- please, Im sure he has a go fund me account too, pitiful
This comment section is gross. “If this happened…” is why victims don’t come forward. Regardless of whether you liked his character on a reality TV show, he’s a human being that was violated in a life-altering way. Anybody in this situation deserves to be believed and their recovery supported (mentally and emotionally).
Ya if its true, nobody gets so traumatized that they have to beg for money for their music! Did u not watch him on his Real World! He’s a liar and a drama queen. Go ahead send him some money. Most ppl ask for counseling. #LiesandDeceiption
So if someone is dramatic or party or whatever other character flaw, we shouldn’t believe that they’ve been sexually assaulted? You lot are terrible.
Hi ya Can someone donate to me? I took a break from my recovery to go have fun too. Now I have a ton of bills & fines so I’m back in recovery now so if u wanna donate to me so I can recover from being broke itll help
Did he just ask for $? Boy how convenient! Its like this horrible alledged assault then Oh BTW can u give me money for my music cuz its my therapy, ya,therapy, and pays for sparkling shirts and partying
What the hell did that have to do with anything? Did it make u act like an asshole on ur season of Real World? You acted like a bully and u didnt mention any kind of anything like that til u lost. Whatever
Yeah he did. He was awful on the real world season. Just a nasty person.
I feel like he’s trying to make excuses for why he lost. If that did happen, it’s awful, but I still believe he wanted to blame his losing on something that didn’t reflect on him as a competitor.
I don’t get the impression he’s blaming it on losing. I think once it was all over and he wasn’t in fight mode anymore, the triggers took over. That’s why he collapsed after and not during. That’s just my two cents though!
This guy has no morals. We saw that by his behavior on the real world and here he proves it once again. Gross!
Sorry but his dude is ALL about the drama! If what he claims happened actually happened then that is an awful thing to go through, but don’t ask fans for money for your “recovery”. That’s just ridiculous! Get a job support your own recovery and maybe try and help others instead of yourself all the time!
I think he was hoping to get Jordan sent home instead of him. He wasn’t phased by the first several rounds at the end, only crying after he lost.
Sorry but this dude is ALL about the drama. If what he says happened actually happened that is awful, BUT asking fans to donate money for your “recovery” is just as awful! Stop asking for handouts and do what YOU need to do to recover and help yourself and others.